Do not judge your journey, your self, or your thoughts. He told you that the third time you met…do not judge your journey. Do not compare yourself or your journey to anyone else’s. This is your journey, this is your path, these are your lessons. You can only learn them when the time is right for you. You are learning them now, slowly and surely.
It is okay to go back to work in order to survive so that you can spread the message of love to those who can receive it, one person at a time, one class at a time. You don’t have to be perfect. You don’t have to be the best. All you have to do is be who you are, whole-heartedly, with love and compassion and raw vulnerability.
Do not fear who you are and what you have to do to survive…you are no good to anyone if you are homeless and sick and starving. You can only give fully when you are grounded, balanced, and calm. You can only manifest when you are grounded. For me that grounded feeling comes from feeling stable and supported, protected and loved.
Do not judge your level of awareness or enlightenment because you will be wrong in your judgement. Your thoughts are merely thoughts, they do not define you unless you let them. You are more than your thoughts, more than your body, more than the poses you can shape yourself into, more than the words that you write, more than the things that you feel. If I am not all of the stuff around me, all of the stories I tell myself and others, all of my thoughts, emotions, fears, joys, victories and defeats, who am I? It’s hard to be in a body, on this earth, and remember who you truly are. I am the earth. I am the sky. I am the water in the oceans. I am the moon. I am the planets. I am the whole Universe manifested through the unconditional act of pure love. I am you. You are me.
So, can I let go of my stories? Can I let go of the story that I’m a yoga teacher? Can I let go of the story that I am a scientist? Can I let go of the story that I have somehow failed at life? Can I allow myself to be perfectly whole exactly as I am in this moment? Fear and all? Pain and all? Failures and all? Can I accept that I am exactly where I need to be so that I can learn exactly what I need to learn?
There is no timeline, there is no deadline. There is only existence now. There is only manifestation NOW. There is no race to a finish line. The only thing to do is learn, to love, to be open-hearted, to be whole-hearted. To love despite your fear. To keep moving forward despite having no fucking clue where you are going and what you are doing. To trust your Self and to trust the Universe. Trust that the Universe is sending you all the right information right when you need it, because you are the Universe and you wouldn’t be here if you were not needed right here and right now. Trust that everything is in perfect order, exactly as it should be, exactly as painful, as fearful, as joyful as it is supposed to be because everything is perfect as it is.
The good things, the things that really matter, they don’t develop in 6 months, they don’t develop in 9 months, they don’t develop in one year. The good things, they take a lifetime to develop.
The goal now is to save. Save your judgement for what you want for lunch, not for who you are or how your path has unfolded. Save your fear for transformation, not for stagnancy. Save your money for your manifestation of your healing space, not your yoga pants or bath bombs or anything else that is not necessary. Save your sanity by realizing you are more than what you’ve ever imagined yourself to be, more than you’ve ever defined yourself to be. Save your love so that you can give it out freely to everyone. Save your defenses for the basketball court and allow your heart to melt open to all the love, to all the beauty you are surrounded by every moment of every day of your life.
Be raw. Be vulnerable. Be scared. Be honest. Be love.
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